LOOSE PEN DIARIES

  I’M NOT TOO SURE OF WHAT’S HAPPENING RIGHT NOW !!   JUST WHEN I THOUGHT THAT THIS SHIT WAS OVER FATE THROWS A MONKEY WRENCH IN MY PLANS!!  WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS?  “TAKE HER TO HER ROOM.” MANNY ORDERED WITH AUTHORITY.  “AND LOCK THE FUCKING DOOR! “ WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO? THEN ALL TYPES OF FEELINGS FLOOD ME ONCE. STILL DAZED I’M NOT SURE IF I’M HEARING STRAIGHT. “WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING ABOUT STARING AT THAT NIGGA LIKE THAT?”MARTIN CRIED LIKE HE WAS THROWING A TODDLER TANTRUM. “YOU KNEW THAT WAS NOT COOL TO DO, FORCING ME TO HIT YOU WITH THE GUN! YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU!”  AND THAT’S WHEN ALL OF EVERYTHING HIT ME AT ONCE!! YEAH I WAS MAD AS HELL CAUSE I KNOW I HAD BEEN BUTTED IN THE HEAD WITH A 45! I ALSO REMEMBER WHY I WAS BUTTED IN THE HEAD…… $GOD!! I KNOW I SHOULD BE CONCERNED ABOUT THIS THICK WARM TRICKLE OF BLOOD FLOWING DOWN MY FACE BUT ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT WAS THIS MAN! I WAS BEING DAMN NEAR DRAGGED UNTIL MARTIN REACHED THE STAIRS AND SWOOPED ME OFF MY FEET LIKE IT MATTERED. “I’M SO SORRY !! IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN….NEVER. “ MARTIN  WAS GIVING SOME MORE OF THOSE EMPTY LAME PROMISES. “NEVERMIND ALL OF THAT I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND. IT’S YOUR JOB.”I LIED.AIN’T THIS THE SAME NIGGA THAT SAID HE WOULD NEVER LET ANYTHING HAPPEN TO ME. I GUESS HE MEANT THE SHIT THAT HE DIDN’T DO HIS SELF. “BUT WHAT DID I DO… I DON’T REMEMBER ANYTHING.” I SAID WITH ASPIRATIONS OF HEARING SOMETHING DIFFERENT  THAN  WHAT I ALREADY KNEW. “YOU WERE STARING AT THE HELP AND MANNY ORDERED US TO KNOCK YOU OUT  BUT  BEFORE I LET ANYBODY PUT THEIR HANDS ON YOU I DID IT MYSELF!” I KNOW THIS NIGGA AIN’T SAYING THIS SHIT LIKE HE DID ME A FAVOR.”FOR REAL SLAYJONIA, I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING AND I KNOW YOU’VE CHANGED FOR ME”. WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS NIGGA ON! HE COULDN’T POSSIBLY BELIEVE THAT ALL THIS FUCKING IS LOVE!! I HAD SOME SHIT TO DEAL WITH IF HE THOUGHT FOR ONE MOMENT WE WOULD BE HAPPY TOGETHER. FOOLED BY HIS LUST IS ALL I COULD THINK OF AS ALL TYPES OF SHIT WAS COMING OUT HIS MOUTH.”MARTIN, WHO WAS I STARING AT AND WHY WAS HE HERE?” I ASKED. “HE’S MY NEW BOSS. I’M STEPPING DOWN FROM HEAD OF SECURITY AND NOW I’M WORKING ON A PLAN THAT’S GONE HAVE US SET FOR LIFE.DON’T WORRY BOUT THAT NEW NIGGA. I GOT MY CONNECTS AND HE ‘S THE NEW BOSS BUT IT’S LIKE HE’S WORKING FOR ME. IM GONNA GET YOU OUT OF THIS BULLSHIT HERE AND GIVE YOU REAL LOVE,”MARTIN REASSURED. I CAN’T BELIEVE HE THINKS FOR ONE MOMENT THAT I WOULD LOVE A COWARD ASS NIGGA. I MEAN IS HE SERIOUS WITH ALL THIS RUN AWAY AND LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER SHIT. I’M PAST MY LIMIT OF HATE FOR THESE NIGGAS BUT I’M GONNA HOLD ON A LITTLE WHILE LONGER SO THAT THINGS ARE TAKEN CARE OF…. THE RIGHT WAY. I KNEW NOT TO ASK ANYTHING ELSE ABOUT $GOD CAUSE THIS NIGGAS A CERTIFIED HATER. THIS NIGGA LEANED IN TO KISS MY FOREHEAD AND IT TOOK EVERYTHING NOT TO YELL RAPE AND WATCH HIM DIE. INSTEAD I HELD MY BREATH AND WITH ALL MY ENERGY SIMPLY REPLIED,”O.K.

       WHEN SOMEONE SAID THAT YOU’LL KNOW WHEN YOU MEET YOUR SOULMATE, THEY DIDN’T LIE. IT’S BEEN ALL OF FIVE LONG DAYS, ONE HUNDRED TWENTY HOURS,SEVENTY TWO HUNDRED MINUTES AND I CAN’T EVEN COUNT THE SECONDS SINCE I’VE SEEN HIS FACE. I CLOSE MY EYES THINKING ABOUT OUR LAST ENCOUNTER AND OFTEN DRIFT INTO SOME OF MY BEST EVER DAYDREAMS. HIS SMELL IS SO INTOXICATING, A MIXTURE OF CURVE AND MARIJUANA. HIS SKIN SO CLEAN AND SMOOTHE LIKE UNCUT CHOCOLATE. HIS TOUCH IS SO STRONG AND AGGRESSIVE. BOLD WITH ALL HIS MOVES. THE WAY HE GUIDES HIS TONGUE  IN SOFT  SLOW CIRCLES AROUND MY NIPPLES AND THEN TO MY STOMACH,KISSING MY RIBS TICKLING THEM WITH THEM WITH SOFT MOIST KISSES ALL THE WAY DOWN MY SIDE TO MY THIGHS. MAKING HIS WAY ACROSS MY BODY, UP AND DOWN ALL OF MY CURVES TO TEASE ME.  IT HURTS SO GOOD!!  I’M ALWAYS CUT SHORT OF GLORY WHEN SOMEONE STUPID LIKE MANNY OR MARTIN INTERRUPTS.  I’M NOT TRIPPING THOUGH BECAUSE I KNOW THAT THIS SHIT IS DEFINETLY TEMPORARY. MY LIFE IS ABOUT TO CHANGE NOW THAT HE’S A PART OF IT. I TOOK THE LIBERTY TO READ MANNY’S CALENDAR AND NOTHING BUT A BULLET WILL KEEP ME AWAY FROM THIS MAN. HE WILL BE HERE ACCORDING TO MANNY’S METICULOUS RECORDS AROUND TWO O’CLOCK TODAY. IT’S ONE FIFTEEN AND I HAVE ON MY BLACK SILK SUNDRESS COMPLIMENTED BY MY BLACK LACE SILK THONGS. I HAVE APPLE BLOSSOMS THROUGHOUT THE HOUSE FOR HEADY LOVE, SENSUALITY, AND PREFERENCE. I KNOW THAT HE’S MY SOULMATE. I FELT IT AND I KNOW HE FELT IT TOO.  MY GAME IS DEFINETLY ON!!

       I WENT FOR A BRIEF WALK TO THE GREENHOUSE THAT I LOVE SO MUCH JUST TO PASS SOME TIME. MAN LOOKING AT THE STAINED GLASS REMINDS ME OF HOW MUCH THIS HOUSE MEANS TO ME. A LOT OF MY PERSONALITY WENT INTO THIS GREENHOUSE. MANNY LET ME DESIGN AND DICTATE EVERYTHING THAT WENT INTO IT. IT’S MY SANTUARY. NO ONE COMES INSIDE WITHOUT MY KNOWLEDGE. I HAD IT DESIGNED THAT WAY. SO SOMETIMES BECAUSE I’M SUCH AN EXHIBITIONIST I JUST WALK FREELY AMONGST MY FLOWERS.  JUST AS I WAS ABOUT TO ENDULGE IN PICKING A FEW AN ALL TOO FAMILIAR SMELLS COMES ACROSS MY NOSE. I KNOW THAT IT ISN’T ANY OF MY FLOWERS YET EXOTIC AND INTOXICATING. I WALKED TO THE THIRD ROW AND I COULDN’T BELIEVE MY EYES. HEART POUNDING SO HARD I FELT IT IN MY FINGERTIPS. “ HI, UMM HOW DID YOU GET IN HERE? THERE’S NO ONE ALLOWED IN HERE.”I WHISPERED. FEARING FOR HIS LIFE.”IT’S COOL MA, I’M JUST CHECKING OUT THIS BEAUTFUL  AMBIANCE THAT’S FLOWING IN HERE. BESIDES I ALWAYS COME TO SHIT LIKE THIS EARLY. YOU NEVER KNOW RIGHT” HE EXPRESSED WITHOUT ANY CARE FOR CONSEQUENCES. “I’M SLAYJONIA”, I EXTENDED MY HAND FORWARD TO SHAKE HIS.TREMBLING INSIDE ANXIOUSLY AWAITING THE HEATED TOUCH OF HIS HAND.THEN HE RESPONDED” I KNOW”, AND LEANED FORWARD TO KISS MY HAND. HIS LIPS WERE SO SOFT AND HOT PRESSED AGAINST MY FLESH THAT I INSTANTLY   FELT ORGASMIC. THEN HE PULLED AWAY AND LOOKED DEEP INTO MY EYES AND SAID”YOU’RE SO MUCH BETTER THAN A SEX CLUB, AND THESE NIGGAS!! I’M LYLE AND THEY CALL ME MONEY GOD. IT’S MY PLEASURE TO FINALLY MEET YOU SLAYJONIA”. MY EARS WERE BURNING WHEN HE SAID MY NAME. THE HEAT  BETWEEN US  FOGGED UP THE STAINED GLASS WINDOWS. I WANTED NOTHING BUT MORE OF HIM. THEN I BLINKED MY EYES AND HE WAS GONE. I COULD STILL SMELL HIM OVER THE FLOWERS. I COULD STILL FEEL HIS KISS. AGAIN THIS MAN HAS LEFT ME FROZEN AND BREATHLESS…….. I’M IN LOVE!!!